Our D1 Engine – When Buddha took over my GPS 
Two days before the motivational message was sent out to all leaders in the Arts and Culture Department, I was actually going through a tough time…
The few months of on-going volunteering since April 2018 at this new and diverse department with manpower shortage was starting to take its toll on me. Emotions raged after receiving more bad news in addition to the constraints in manpower.
I was physically, and emotionally tired. At the bottom of the pit you may say! Totally negatively charged at that point.
Then remembering having read Abbot Jing Yuan’s sharing on Facebook to the volunteers who aspire to practice Buddhism through volunteering and benefitting sentient beings.
This Dharma engine powered me up with pure Dharma fuel of motivation from our Abbot Jing Yuan. It re-energized and recharged me positively!
Rest if I need to and be positively powered by the Dharma (D1) Engine of Shifu if emotions take a dip!
Another igniting moment was found after reading this Shifu’s discourse:
Although benefiting the self is hard, to benefit others is even more difficult. At that time, when trying to help others with energetic compassion, more than great wisdom is required; the great energetic discipline is also needed.
So while helping others, be brave, intrepid, unyielding, and determined! This “brave” is forging ahead; the “intrepid” is fearlessness; “unyielding” is unbreakable; and last but not least, to have assertive determination.
When I heard this discourse in my living room, I burst out crying! I shouted to Shifu:
“Shifu! It is too hard!”
“Way to hard! “
“I can’t do this! I am very tired!”
“It is too painful!” I don’t want this suffering!”
“I really can’t! My body is tired! It is beyond me!”
“I don’t want to continue anymore! I am afraid for my health”
“I’ve had enough!”
The crying continued…not sure for how long…
As the tears flowed…the mind regained some peace and clarity…
The following thoughts came to mind:
If I am unwell, I will see a doctor.
If my heart is heavy, I will seek consolation through the Lamrim.
If it is the end of my life journey’s, I want to see Lord Buddha!
Another reminder from our Abbot that came to mind also shone an extra ray of hope:
If there is still a solution to a crisis, why should one not be joyful?
If there is not a single solution possible, being worried would not be of any assistance!
Magically, the Dharma (D1) Engine fired up my positivity and my unseen wounds gradually began healing. Without which, I could not have advanced ahead to write that motivational message dated 18.10.18 and strive towards the pledge that I made!
I can’t give what I don’t have. With the D1 Engine, I could pass on the positive energy which ignited and empowered me!
Gratitude to our lineage masters, SHIFU and Abbot Jing Yuan!
Having a DYNAMIC engine is one of the important reasons for being able to make it to the destination at the best possible speed.
Thankful to have the Dharma (D1) Engine!
Penned by: Irene Lee
TO BE CONTINUED… SEE YOU TOMORROW
独特的佛法引擎  – 佛陀掌控我的GPS
“太难了! 我很累了!身体不行了! “
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