If you meet a wise and precious spiritual master, would you want to stay by his side and learn forever, if not at least to be with him for as long a period as possible?
Many would and many have.
But what would you do if your spiritual master sends you on a learning expedition away from him? Away from this treasure cove where you can learn the Buddha’s teaching directly from him?
Would you be reluctant or would you have faith in your Guru to know that what your Guru decides is the best for your practice and cultivation?
Often we have our wants.
We have a picture in our mind about our ideal learning method and environment and we would be resistant to any obstacles that might change that picture and spoil our plans or worse, force us out of our comfort zone.
Yet there is a disciple that took his Guru’s words and instructions to heart and had the opportunity to meet “the miracle of his spiritual life”!
Departure is hard…
Distance from our beloved and treasured Guru and loved ones is hard…
But all is worth it for the true teachings of Buddha!
Would you agree that it is worth giving your life for this ultimate destination and eternal happiness?
At this point, I recall a time where I was approached by our Abbot of BW Monastery, Venerable Jing Yuan.
With Venerable, was Sister Lee Hui Ling and our COO, Brother 猷民。Venerable wanted me to change my area of volunteering and be a group leader of another unit.
Though I have always thought that I was very forthcoming in volunteering. Sadly, my then ignorant first response was to reject the proposal. Foolishly bold.
My reason was that I just wanted to be a follower in any volunteer team and be happy serving without heavy responsibilities to lead. I had my work outside and did not want to be stressed.
Our benevolent Abbot did not even raise an eyebrow. He smiled and asked me a question. He said: “Can I not be a leader and also be a follower?”
I was dumbfounded.
I lost the debate straight away, with just a question.
My central processing unit was electrified! A powerful positive energy gushed through my jammed “hanged” brain.
What was I doing?
Always verbally aspiring to benefit all sentient beings and achieve Buddhahood.
Yet, I was rejecting the same opportunity that I supplicated for! Thinking about again makes me embarrassed of my timid reaction.
I never would have thought that I did not really know what I wanted and when the chance came for me to get what I wanted, my lack of merits made me turn away from what I wanted so dearly!
Having a rebooted system, I asked for Venerable Jing Yuan to decide for me. If he felt that I was the suitable candidate for this next spiritual set of homework. I will take up the challenge and not be fearful. Not to let my own self doubt be the obstacle for a step closer to Buddhahood. But humbly requested for guidance.
I would rely on our teachers’ wisdom as I know at times I am clouded by the societal practices and wrong views.
Dear Buddha and lineage masters, please lead the way! Please grant me wisdom and compassion!
I long for the moment we will meet and be comforted in my longing for spiritual guidance!
I long for the moment we will meet and look forward to our reunion.
heart to heart，
I will wait for our reunion!
Penned by 妙矜